I'm Back!

Hey Guys!

    I'm finally at a point where I can keep up with my blog again! 

    The re-entry process has been a really long, difficult, but rewarding one for me. During the first couple of weeks, it was like being on vacation again. I went out to dinner with friends, went to new parks in my home town, and didn't have anything to really worry about. The charm quickly wore off, though. I found myself really out of place. I wasn't included in jokes, I was often left out of plans, and after a while, no one really wanted to hear my stories. The life I made for myself was irrelevant and uninteresting.

    I found myself wanting to be alone to my thoughts, memories of everything that happened, and my plans for how to get back. My re-entry process and reverse culture shock were much worse than I ever could have imagined. I was really depressed. I really didn't want anything to do with my life here.

      Then, something hit me. I have one life to live; everything that happens in this life has influenced me as a person. So, instead of mourning the passing of one chapter, why not celebrate it, appreciate it, see how it has shaped me and start the next? I mean, it is just as important than the last. Enjoy the present, appreciate the past and look forward to the future.

    This inspired me to step out of my comfort zone, do what I've dreamed of, and not worry necessarily worry about what's expected of me. I changed my major to Cultural Anthropology and I got the tattoos I had been dreaming about for years. I'm planning my travels, learning languages and simply being nice, even when it's hard. I've been spending more time focusing on my spirituality; I meditate and I pray. I'm becoming aware of who I am and what I want, and I can say  it's because I enjoyed putting everything on hold,  building a new life form scratch, then losing it and struggling to start over once again.

    Everyone needs time to find themselves, however they want to do it. But I can say, removing yourself from your previous obligations and everyday expectations, you learn so much and it changes you, and it is not easy by any means.

SO with this post, I would like to begin and share my new chapter with you.  I'm in school and my goal is to become ESL certified and travel the world, learn languages, meet people and find myself. I want to live happy and healthy and appreciative for everything this world has to offer. I'm happy now.